Send Me to the Planetarium

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As a young girl, I developed an overzealous fascination with outer space. The balance of the blazing stars astounded me – especially as they contrasted against the composed and appeasing moon. When I was ten years old, my mother gifted me with a miniature telescope which I treasured whole-heartedly. I loved everything about it: its fluorescent yellow coloring and accented lines of charcoal grey, its accompanying encyclopedia containing pages and pages decorated with the images of constellations that I one day hoped to locate, but most of all that each time I would peer through the narrowed eyepiece I would see the startling chasm of earth and sky.

I recall the copious amount of time I spent sitting by my windowsill contriving a planetarium within the confinements of my own mind, marveling at the thought of distant places as I tethered together the images of planets, stars, moons, and asteroids far far away. It was confounding to think that I, one girl, was but a single being in the cluster of not only people but both the world of the animate and inanimate. I existed as a one, yet connected to so many. I was lost in space and peculiarly enough, that’s just the way I liked it.

But, today is different. You see, through the years I’ve struggled to find my footing in a world blasting with the loud murmur of assent for egocentrism. A world where we are force-fed the idea that self-indulgence should be our primary intent for any and all actions. A place riddled with the belief that the world ceases to exits past our fingertips – which my ten-year-old self would emphatically disagree with. Pride takes refuge in our hearts as we strive to acclimate our souls in a place, a world, which was not meant to last forever. The arenas of our minds and hearts have become pervaded with the conviction that looking out for our wants and needs is the sure path to untarnished success.

Questions heave in my chest and I’m flustered. Why have we forgotten about our hungry neighbors and those who suffer from ailments and diseases residing in hospitals? How could we forget those who are lying on streets or under bridges with nothing more than makeshift cardboard beds? When did we become so pretentious that self-assurance itself has become merely a contention for further competition? Why have we forgotten that a vast and yielding world exists outside our doors? And have we forgotten our origin story, our humble beginnings?

I keep having this reoccurring vision of battling against my very self as I’m being swallowed into the abyss of my ego. For whenever I find myself weak and forgetful of who I am, I write recklessly in my journal. I always pen the same paragraph, over and over again.

I’d like to skip the pleasantries and lay it all on the line. I would like to declare that I am a speck. I am a single speck. I am a single servant whose entire existence has been molded from a clot of blood. My feet cling to Earth unrelentingly and the air I breathe statically charges me. The blood flowing through my veins warms me and the fire of faith fuels my sprit. I have Him (subhana wa ta’ala) to thank and I solely worship and obey Him (subhana wa ta’la).

We should be asking ourselves, what have we contributed to the betterment of the world? Scratch that. We should be asking ourselves, what we have contributed towards the betterment of the world, sincerely for the sake of Allah? As Muslims we are naturally fitted to be a social activists. We have a role to fulfill and a responsibility to shoulder. With all of the resources at our disposal and means at our fingertips, no excuse is justifiable.

Half the battle is simply bursting the bubble of our intrinsically driven lives and reminding ourselves that we have gifts to share with the world, especially those who desperately need them. Not to inch too close to a cliché, but it’s a great big world out there and you don’t need to peer into a telescope to realize that. Thus, I lay my fluttering eyelashes to rest, send myself to that planetarium buried deep in my mind and recall the words of Edward Everett Hale. “I am only one; but still I am one. I cannot do everything; but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do”.

Hanaa is an English Language and Literature major who calls the border city of Windsor, Ontario, Canada home. She has an insatiable thirst for the written word, particularly poetry, and enjoys immersing herself in the study of new languages. She writes for MYM to remind herself and others that all of our trials and triumphs come from to Allah azza wa jal. In her spare time she enjoys writing eclectically in her journal, attending AlMaghrib seminars, and playing basketball.


  1. So many reasons to like this one, first of all your description of that incredible and amazing creation that is the sky above us,it reminded me of a verse in surat Ghafir ” “57.The creation of the heavens and the earth is indeed greater than the creation of mankind, yet most of mankind know not”. 
     If I get back to look with wonder at the sparkling treasures of the night, know you had something to do with it!The way you related it to our duties as Muslims got me really thinking about our priorities.Looking forward to the next one =)

  2. I don’t recall, in the recent past, pausing to realize that I am an insignificant speck. I don’t think that my ego could endure allowing my mind to dwell on that idea for any measure of time. However, it is quite true.

    I AM, indeed, an insignificant speck but this does and should not fool me into thinking that I lack the capacity to make meaningful and transcendent changes in whichever way God has equipped me to do so.  

    I sense two points running along side each other in this exceptional piece: Be Humble, Be Hardworking. 

  3. That was very interesting, MashaAllah. That is something I have never personally reflected upon as much as I should have…a real eye opener in very eloquent yet direct terms. Nice work. :)

  4. Being passionate about the cosmos myself, I was able to relate to the author. Her grasp of the language and literary style are commendable. I look forward to reading more of her output.

  5. I am glad to find that I am not alone. I have often thought about the exact same things as you: why do we forget about the immnese and prodigious universe that lays around us? Why do we become so wrapped up that we forget that our earth is not the end to all, or even worse, that our tiny spectrum within the earth is the end to all? Why do we forget about the significant segments of the population who are suffering or less fortunate than ourselves just because we do not find them within the narrow horizons we make for ourselves? We live in cages without realizing it, never thinking to look beyond its bars.

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